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May 12th, 2006


10:55 pm - A Quiz
Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

Current Location: www.IndieRadioLive.com
Current Mood: [mood icon] calm
Current Music: www.IndieRadioLive.com

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10:31 pm - A Little About Me
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Kathi Jo
Birthday:Second to the last day of the year, born in the bicentenial year
Birthplace:West Palm Beach, Florida
Current Location:Wellington, Florida
Eye Color:Most of the time they're Green
Hair Color:Red
Height:5'10
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right
Your Heritage:Cherokee, Choctaw, Dutch, French, Irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:Tennies
Your Weakness:Potatoes
Your Fears:StraightJackets, FadingAway, LosingMyself, LosingMyMind, LosingMyChildren
Your Perfect Pizza:Pepperoni and extra cheese with GREEN olives
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Going to school
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:I dont do online messengers
Thoughts First Waking Up:"Why is John on the phone so damn early??"
Your Best Physical Feature:I think I have a couple.. Eyes, Hair, Fingers, Toes, Lips, Legs, and Armpits :D
Your Bedtime:about 2 hours before Sunrise
Your Most Missed Memory:If I miss it, then that means it's not there.. right? ok, I miss remembering childhood friends' last names so I can find them on the net.
Pepsi or Coke:Neither, Dr. Pepper
MacDonalds or Burger King:Micky D's
Single or Group Dates:Neither, home with family
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Neither, Grandma's tea :)
Chocolate or Vanilla:Neither
Cappuccino or Coffee:Neither
Do you Smoke:Yes
Do you Swear:Yes, but not at grandma's house ;)
Do you Sing:I try
Do you Shower Daily:I try
Have you Been in Love:Yes
Do you want to go to College:Yes
Do you want to get Married:I am, no moooore PLEASE
Do you belive in yourself:Sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:
Do you think you are Attractive:Sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:No
Do you get along with your Parents:Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:Yes
Do you play an Instrument:I wish
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Advil
In the past month have you gone on a Date:No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Noooooo
In the past month have you been on Stage:No
In the past month have you been Dumped:No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:No, and I miss it
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:No.. well, ok maybe a couple cute pics on the net
Ever been Drunk:Yes
Ever been called a Tease:Yes
Ever been Beaten up:No
Ever Shoplifted:No
How do you want to Die:I really don't care
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:A Bitch :D
What country would you most like to Visit:Scotland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color:Doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair:Long
Height:Taller than me
Weight:Doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:Comfortable
Number of Drugs I have taken:1
Number of CDs I own:Too many to count, but all Indie :)
Number of Piercings:3
Number of Tattoos:4
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Nothing, I wouldnt be me if I did.

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Current Mood: [mood icon] complacent
Current Music: www.IndieRadioLive.com

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May 6th, 2006


02:51 pm - Nothing
Empty
Current Mood: [mood icon] hungry

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March 22nd, 2006


03:21 pm - Online FENDER AUCTION 4-1-06!!

Fender Auction!
IRL has declared April as "Buy Indie Music" Month and to start it off, on Saturday, April 1st bewtween 5-7pm Est, I (Raphael Slagg from JeezLaWeeze) will be auctioning off my Fender Tele that was used o­n the cd "She Came From Nowhere" to give Back to IRL! Many Artists have benefited from the exposure IRL offers for FREE, so I invite ALL artists, musicians, and bands to participate in this auction to help keep IRL Alive and Free. Got something gathering dust that you want to auction? Email me raphael@indieradiolive.com Come bid o­n my Axe, I will autograph it and ship this baby to the highest bidder! Meet us in the IRL Chatroom April 1st.


IndieRadioLive.com

 


Current Mood: [mood icon] touched
Current Music: Sandi Soyle & The Cultivators "That Aint Right" on IRL

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March 2nd, 2006


01:17 pm - Some Quizzes
Mermaid
You're Ariel from the little mermaid. You're

really curious and you realy want to get out

of the sea to live with the humans!


What Disney Princess Are You (For Gals ONLY)
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Kathi may explode without warning
M
EXPLOSIVE

Username:

From Go-Quiz.com


You are Brigitte Bardot

Naurally sensual and beautiful
You're an exotic beauty who turns heads everywhere
You've got a look that's one of a kind



Your Scent is Key Lime

Sassy, real, and totally smooth
You're a total flirt who's always ready for a challenge!



Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily


Your Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua

Your energy: deep

Your season: winter

Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.
You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.
A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.
You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.


Enjoy!
Current Mood: [mood icon] full
Current Music: Raphael Slagg DJing LIVE on IndieRadioLive.com

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February 28th, 2006


12:36 pm - Double OTT VI Freestyle Battle Rap - LIVE
Do you want to get heard by the people who can make your dreams come true? Here is your chance!

I wanted to invite you to the Battle Rap of the year we are putting on for Palm Beach. People are flying in from all over the US to see the performers. Its a great way to get noticed by the people who count. It will also be broadcasted LIVE on www.IndieRadioLIve.com.. its a win-win for everybody.

March 4th at 8pm, I hope you can make it!!

Ike Turna is hosting and we have Wolfman, J Murder, and more performing.

ALL are Welcome! www.Indieradiolive.com for more details! (IndieRadioLive is a small independent online only radio station whose goal is to promote independent artists.)





Awesome, I hope to see you there :)

On another subject, Id love to play your music on our radio station, when you have time, could your stop by www.IndieRadioLive.com and click on 'Submit Your Band' at the top?

Thanks!
Current Mood: [mood icon] busy
Current Music: Raphael Slagg DJing LIVE on IndieRadioLive.com

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February 21st, 2006


03:15 pm - Answers for My Universe

  • Everything in the universe originates from one boundless, eternal, unknowable source. After a period of manifested existence the universe returns to that source.
  • The universe itself is an organic whole, alive, intelligent, conscious, and divine.
  • The laws of nature are the result of intelligent forces.
  • The law of karma holds throughout the universe. It operates at all levels, ensuring justice, harmony, and balance.
  • We reincarnate into successive lives. Once we have reached the human level we do not regress back into animal forms.
  • The law of karma acts over our successive lives to ensure justice. (We don't get away with it.) We are the cause of every joy and pain in our own life.
  • A law of cycles provides fundamental structure at all levels. Two examples are our pattern of reincarnation, and the continuing "lives" of the universe as it appears, then returns to its source.
  • Analogy and correspondence provide fundamental structure for the universe. This is a broad statement of the Hermetic axiom - "As above, so below".
  • Evolution applies on a grand scale to all of life.
  • Soul gets involved in this world of matter. It experiences and learns. Soul then works its way back in a long pilgrimage to its primal source. This again follows a cyclic pattern.
  • This evolution achieves experience, self-awareness, and ever increasing perfection. Evolution occurs on the physical, mental, and spiritual planes.
  • "Survival of the fittest" along with gradual accumulation of small beneficial changes does not explain the "origin of the species". The origin of the species is due to intelligent design.
  • Humanity has experienced significant evolution in long periods on the continents (not islands) of Atlantis and Lemuria.
  • There is a seven fold constitution of man ranging from the physical plane to the purely spiritual plane.
  • Thoughts are tangible objects on higher planes. Every thought and action has its effect on us and on our surroundings and has a karmic consequence.
  • The three higher planes of this constitution form the "higher self" and that is what reincarnates from life to life and accumulates the experience, the lessons, the virtues. The lower planes form the "lower self" and are the vehicle used by the higher self while it is living in this active testing ground of incarnate life.
  • At the moment of death we have a review of our life just past - as we cast off this physical frame. After a short period, that varies greatly between individuals, we cast off other lower aspects of our constitution and the reincarnating self begins a long period of merciful, earned, rest before the next birth.
  • Often during this life, our spiritual nature is obscured in our self-centered daily lives as we cater to our immediate needs and desires. But the spiritual self is always there to guide us if we seek it with strong earnest desire.
  • We can strive to reach our higher self by:

    • Listening to our still small voice of conscience.
    • Noting the dreams from the higher self.
    • Developing our intuition.
    • Meditating.
    • Studying principles of the Wisdom Religion.
    • Aligning ourselves with Nature.
    • Engaging in action for the greater good.
    • Carefully reading the events of our daily life.

  • Brotherhood is a fact in nature. We are ONE at the highest spiritual component of our nature. We are sparks from one flame. We are the fingers on one hand. We are ONE at other levels as well.
  • We should:

    • Understand we are not separate from humanity or the world.
    • Emphasize brotherhood, altruism, and compassion in our daily lives.
    • Strive to know our higher self.
    • As a guiding rule - act for and as the Self of All.

  • The religions of the world are branches on the tree whose trunk is the one ancient - once universal - wisdom religion. The religions are the tributaries of one great river. (But they borrow from each other to make the actual details much more complex.)
  • Mythology often transmits some of this knowledge in symbolic form.
  • Periodically, great teachers come amongst us to help us in this evolutionary path. They may create another branch on the tree.
  • Humanity's potential is infinite and every being has a contribution to make toward a grander world. We are all in it together. We are one.



Current Mood: [mood icon] optimistic
Current Music: www.IndieRadioLive.com

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February 18th, 2006


03:18 pm
The last post was a very dark day for me... stress and all just kind of erupted and exploded. I feel better now. Im changing things in my life.

1. I will not get upset when I program something and it doesnt work.. (sounds simple, but for me this is a big one, cause when I am upset, my family suffers as well.)

2. I will delegate time to work on IRL... say, 10 hours a day instead of every minute I am awake.

3. I will spend more time with my kids on a daily basis... as opposed to setting their games up on their pc so they are just as computer crazy as me.

4. I will make an effort to create a 'normal' family life here at home, even thinking of getting a parttime job.. just to feel 'normal'.

5. I will not let people on the internet hurt me emotionally.

6. I will make time for my own personal talents that Don't include the computer.

7. There is more Im changing... but that gets a little more personal, heh

8. And the most hardest of all, Ive quit smoking that oh-so-sticky-green-stuff.. After smoking for 10 years on a daily basis, Ive come to the conclusion that reguardless of what the 'experts' say... it is addicting, VERY addicting.. You DO get withdrawls, and some ARE physical. It has had control over my life for so long... I miss it, I do lol but I feel so much better! So much more energy! 30 days they say is how long it takes for the thc to leave your body and you wont 'need' it anymore... Well I have 26 more days to go. Maybe then I will finally have a good night's sleep without cold and hot sweats.

The darkness on Valentines Day and the few days after that I spent in my deep, black hole made me stronger. I can do this. I can take control of my life and be SOMETHING. I HAVE to... my kids and husband need me. I need me.

Again, Thank you all and Im sorry you read something I wrote in one of the darkest moments of my life. It must have been really weird to read something like that from someone who seems so damn happy all the time hehe.. but everyone has their own times of depression and Im no different. The best thing about being in the dark is you are more ready to appreciate the light. And I do... You guys are the light of my life along with my family here at home.

I am Somebody.. a crazy somebody, but at least its something
Current Mood: [mood icon] rejuvenated
Current Music: Kapuda 'Hit and Run' on IndieRadioLive.com

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February 14th, 2006


10:13 pm - NOTHING!
I AM NOTHING!
Happy Valentine's Day
I AM NOTHING!
Mother
I AM NOTHING!
Wife
I AM NOTHING!
Daughter
I AM NOTHING!
Grandaughter
I AM NOTHING!
Sister
I AM NOTHING!
Friend
I AM NOTHING!
Webmaster
I AM NOTHING!
Dj
I AM NOTHING!
Human
I AM NOTHING!
Sex Object
I AM NOTHING!

My worth... is NOTHING

'NOTHING" shouldn't hurt... why do I? I've never thought of myself as NOTHING until today. I always thought I was worth something to someone, at least a little... but I've been made to see the light, I AM NOTHING!

What can you do with 'nothing'?... Can you poke a stick at it? Can you touch it? Can you hear it? Can you smell it? Can you taste it? Can you love it? Can you cherish and protect it? No... you can't. You can only do NOTHING with it.

At least I know I'm not hated... you cant hate 'nothing'... But then the question arises in my nothingness head.. Is it better to be hated than be 'nothing'? At least hate is an emotion... "nothing" is NOTHING.

My new motto:: "Nothing is, as nothing does."
Current Mood: [mood icon] NOTHING!
Current Music: NOTHING!

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December 29th, 2005


01:39 am - I love these, they're beautiful!

I saw these 2 quizes on a friend's page and thought they were absolutely beautiful. I had to steel them! Thank you K!


This first one is so dead on (even the negative traits)


 

raveneyes
RAVEN EYES

You have Raven
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Intellectual,
Wise, Experienced, Honest,
Trustworthy
Negative Traits: Pompous,
Condescending, Withdrawn, Pessimistic,
Depressed

Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
brought to you by Quizilla selkie
The Scottish selkie was a being who appeared to be
a seal, but had the ability to shed their skin
and roam the land in human form. If a human
were to happen upon the discarded seal skin, he
or she could hide it and force the selkie to
marry him or her. However, if the selkie were
to ever find the skin, he or she would
immediately reassume seal form and return to
the sea from whence they came, leaving their
spouse and offspring on land to forever mourn
their loss. As a selkie, you are a very withdrawn, secretive
and somewhat sad person, and those around you
find you alluring and mystifying. People who
come into your life find it difficult to find
the inner you. You are also curious, but you
enjoy the comforts of home most of all.

Who is your inner Shapeshifter?
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Current Mood: [mood icon] drained
Current Music: Merlin on www.IndieRadiolive.com playing Uncle Sid

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November 21st, 2005


02:25 pm - I made it BACK!


Thats me on Halloween hehe. I made a new photo ablum.. spent a lot of time on it when we had no cable after Wilma (have hurricane pictures in there too) So CHECK IT OUT! The Horner Family Album


SooooooooOOOOooOOooOOo much going on. I was just getting used to taking care of one major website. Now Im building ANOTHER chatroom (from scratch this time), an OMD, a blogging site, and ohhh i think i'll stop there before i devuldge too much information to the wrong people


We did alright through the hurricane. I told everyone earilier this year that my new nickname is Hurricane Bait. Only structure damage we had was my car. We have a tiled roof and some tiles were nicely scraped across the hood. But I say we were lucky. That backhalf of the storm was a DOOSEY, yeah I said doosey, so what?


Raven was in the hospital for 4 days after the storm. She had a really bad kidney infection. We are both traumatized now. She wont let you get NEAR here with tape! It took us 2 weeks just to get all the damn tape off of her (she wouldnt let us pull it). She is good now, she got so dehydrated, she was still ill when we came home but her fever had stayed down for 24 hours so they didnt need to keep her. Her fevers would spike up into the 104's, thats what they were really worried about. It was definantly an experience she will never forget (she had never been hospitalized).


I have a feeling I should say something. I mean, this IS my blog, I could say anything I want. You readers know that... you know that I could've flamed a half a million entries by now, but I havent. I've been too busy LIVING. But I have a couple things I want to say.


A major traumatic event happened back in Feb. A lot of people turned their backs and their friendship on me. They tore my GOOD intentions up with their evil, bad intention ways. I NEVER intended to harm anyone, and I didnt. But they did. They intentionally tore up my whole life. Well I need to say that I have rebuilt and have grown to an even bigger entity than I ever dreamed. Back in Feb, these people talked about 'Karma'. I bet they are cursing it now. What about my Karma? My Karma is just fine! How has yours been treating you lately?? Let's see... broken relationships all over the place, broken friendships, broken dreams, (lets not mention broken websites), broken partnerships, broken, broken, broken. Thats what you all are. And I, am not. Thats all I had to say.


Current Mood: [mood icon] accomplished
Current Music: Acid King Guitar-Mysterious www.IndieRadioLive.com

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October 3rd, 2005


10:02 am - Life can be so Simple, and yet so Complicated
::sneeze::

Why does it seem like now that I have a little cash, my life is more unorganized? Im not complaining, mind you... getting money was a good thing. I have Nothing to stress over or worry over. I've started gaining weight ::YAY:: I have ass and tits now w00t!



But I feel like I have less time to spend on certain things. We've been doing tons of family stuff. It's been great fun.



IndieRadioLive.com will be getting another facelift. It is a must seeing as how it is now a registered business under our corporation. $7,000 on a new server, I know its a lot, but its kick ass and that includes the programmers to do exactly what I want them to do. By the time we are done, there will be NO INTERNET RADIO out there to compare... not that there is too much 'competition' out there atm, but we're taking it another knotch upscale.

People have been asking, so I know Other people are curious... they know we got a settlement, don't know how much or what we plan to do with it.. sucks to be on the 'not to know list' doesnt it??



Anyhow, I have a gallery set up for the pics i've been taking with my new diGi, check it out if it pleases you by clicking on my pic below.. The kids are gorgeous!


Current Mood: [mood icon] stomach flu
Current Music: IndieRadioLive.com

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September 4th, 2005


02:17 pm - ::Runs around like a chicken screaming, "The SKY IS FALLING!"::
You'd figure that the world would go to hell in a handbasket the same exact week, my life actually gets put together. It's odd and it leaves me feeling... i dunno, weirded out. I've donated monies to the red cross, but i feel its not enough. I know that they are now helping them people, but jesus the last few days, ive wanted to by a damn helicopter and help them myself!

heh, and anyone else in Floriduh feel like hurricane bate?? 6 more storms folks, before the end of the season.. thats what they predict. We are moving anyways and I told john, let's move to mexico! He thinks i'm joking! ha! im not, im so disgusted with the government right now, id move.

Anyhow, here is my new toy http://www.digitalsaver.com/stores.asp?productid=22470749 w0000t! of course, I already have tons of pics and im building a gallery for them now. it is saaweeeeeet! John also got a new toy, a digital video camera. We also got a copier/printer/scanner/fax (top of the line of course) for the office.

Kids are happy and doing well in school. We all have tons of crap going on.

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August 25th, 2005


07:33 am - There's a Storm Brewing
Go away Katrinia!

Go away!
Current Mood: [mood icon] crushed
Current Music: http://IndieRadioLive.com

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August 20th, 2005


10:39 am - A Better Outlook on Life
Well, the bell rang at 10am this morning and FedEx droped us off a nice package :D A package worth a few years of normal sallery.. How could something so small and fragile be what we fought 5 looong years for? How could a small piece of paper stand for all of the hardships and suffering our family has been through since the loss of John's eye? I should be excited and jumping around for joy, but here I am getting all philosophical about it. I think it's because I am afraid of change. I always have been, I like my world to be stable. It has not been stable in the last 5 years (financially) but I have gotten used to that. I have lived it for 5 years. The kids know no different. I think I am scared. I KNOW as of today, my life changes. So many plans it makes my head spin! IRL will be the center of it after the family itself is taken care of. Our lives are taking a totally different ride as of NOW. Woaa and I am having troubles coming to terms with it.. the changes.

I know a lot of good will be able to come from this. We can't change the world itself, but our lives will change and THAT is my world. Wow, I'm in a weird mood. Hehe I have a burthday party to go to for 2 kids today, gee aren't they the lucky ones ::ChucklE:: Well I also look at it as the birth of my family and the new IRL. Sooo many plans.. god in some respects, my mind actually dreads getting this money.

On another note...

I drew a little IRL logo. It has the pheonix in it... but I need a working scanner to get it up and digitally work on it, or maybe I'll bring the idea up to Crsh and see if she has any ideas. At least I know I can afford a new scanner ::GriN::

And some thoughts for people::

You people that fucked up my life in the past?? Eat my shorts and go to hell
The loved ones that have always been in my heart?? I promise not to change at all, but only have a little bit more happiness and be a little less stressful ::SmilE::
Current Mood: [mood icon] Not a drop of stress
Current Music: The Lift - Carousel -IndieRadioLive.com

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August 14th, 2005


01:49 pm - A Grandchild's Guide to Using Grandpa's Computer
OMG, I thought this was one of the most funniest things I have read on the www to date. ::chuckle:: Please Enjoy!

Bits Bytes Chips Clocks
Bits in bytes on chips in box.
Bytes with bits and chips with clocks.
Chips in box on ether-docks.

Chips with bits come. Chips with bytes come.
Chips with bits and bytes and clocks come.

Look, sir. Look, sir. read the book, sir.
Let's do tricks with bits and bytes, sir.
Let's do tricks with chips and clocks, sir.

First, I'll make a quick trick bit stack.
Then I'll make a quick trick byte stack.
You can make a quick trick chip stack.
You can make a quick trick clock stack.

And here's a new trick on the scene.
Bits in bytes for your machine.
Bytes in words to fill your screen.

Now we come to ticks and tocks, sir.
Try to say this by the clock, sir.

Clocks on chips tick.
Clocks on chips tock.
Eight byte bits tick.
Eight bit bytes tock.
Clocks on chips with eight bit bytes tick.
Chips with clocks and eight byte bits tock.

Here's an easy game to play.
Here's an easy thing to say....
If a packet hits a pocket on a socket on a port,
and the bus is interupted as a very last resort,
and the address of the memory makes your floppy disk abort
then the socket packet pocket has an error to report!

If your cursor finds a menu item followed by a dash,
and the double-clicking icon puts your window in the trash,
and your data is corrupted cause the index doesn't hash,
then your situation's hopeless, and your system's gona crash.
You can't say this? What a shame, sir!
We'll find you another game, sir.

If the label on the cable on the table at your house
says the network is connected to the button on your mouse,
but your packets want to tunnel on another protocol,
that's repeatedly rejected by the printer down the hall,
and your screen is all distorted by the side-effects of gauss,
so your icons in the window are as wavy as a souse,
then you may as well reboot and go out with a bang,
cause as sure as I'm a poet, the sucker's gunna hang!

When the copy of your floppy's getting sloppy on the disk,
and the microcode instructions cause unecessary risc,
then you have to flash your memory and you'll want to RAM your ROM.
quickly turn of your computer and be sure to tell your mom!

(God bless you Dr. Seuss wherever you are!)
Current Mood: [mood icon] giggly
Current Music: Extra-E - "What She's Got" on IndieRadioLive.com

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July 30th, 2005


09:37 pm - Isn't Life Rich?
Well, we did it. Our life can finally begin. whew!

Our life has been on hold for 5 years (almost to the day). John lost his eye 5 years ago and has been fighting a workman's comp case every since. It is finally over. Papaer are signed and the t's are crossed (no longer our fingers). I don't have to worry when (not if) the eviction notice will be here or when the power is going to get cut. No more.. YES!!! I personally, am just glad it is over and our life can start.

It has been a long time of suffering and waiting. We pick up the check in about 2 weeks (a check that most normal people work 3 years of their life for, still trying to get used to the amount) and we'll be ready to rock. Soo many things will be going on then. IRL will get a new face lift.. giving irl more 'channels' with their own chatrooms, it will be so sweet. Promo items for the djs, tshirts, we're goin all out. We will finally be able to have the money to pay a company to make the telethon cds and get them out of our hair (thank gawd). Life will be grand.

I'm working a little bit with Christopher J Wray http://www.cjwray.com . He is a brilliantly talented ambient artist who wil knock the socks of people with his up coming album and I am so proud to have the chance to be apart of it. Something I've always wanted to do was be part of the creative process of a piece of music. I whispered words for him on one other song, Ambient Sphere IV, but this will be a lot more, I am really looking forward to it.

I wrote a couple peoms today while I was doing laundrey. They will be on http://merrick1230.deviantart.com/ and I may give them to the poetry company who has already published me, who knows what will happen with them.

And now for Kushiel's Words of Advice...

1. Don't go to the laundry mat in skate as you might roll over a puddle of detergant, slip and fall.
2. Leave all animals at home while washing clothes at the laundry mat.
3. Music soothes the soul, hear it here http://IndieRadioLive.com
Current Mood: [mood icon] jubilant
Current Music: Dragojani LIVE @ IndieRadioLive.com

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July 21st, 2005


03:04 pm - I'm back
Well, if you read this that means I am back online. ::Horray!:: But I am actually writing this offline, it is Thursday (7-21) and I am waiting for the cable guy to get here to turn us back on.

::Whew::

It has been one horror-ride after another since John's surgery. He is home and fine now, right beside me playing MarrowWinds. He hurts more after this surgery than the last. It's weird, we thought this surgery (repare colostomy) would be a piece of cake compared to the actual colostomy. Boy, were we wrong. He was in the hospital for 8 days, almost double what he was in for the first one. He is doing good now. He hurts most of the day, it has alot to do with shit (hehe, literally) finally moving around in the bowels again. **Yeah, I know it's gross, but it has been my life since April, this is my journal, yadda-yadda-yadda, you know the drill, don't like it¿ quit reading now.** ANYhow, it kills John when things are moving in the bowels, including gas, so he spends 80% of the day in the bathroom :D He has a half of a cross of staples (41 of them) going from the bottom of the breast bone to the base of his Willy (hehe) and from his new belly button going across the left side 6 inches out. I call him my Cyborg Warrior :-) So as you can tell he is pretty uncomfortable... oh and I almost forgot, he has internal staples too. I could count them on this x-ray we have. Which they had to take because he was throwing up with the tube in his stomache and if the tube is in the right place then it is impossible to throw up. So they found out that it was 15 inches too low and into his bowels... eww yuck, I know, the only thing in his stomache was bile, so when ever he threw up it was this nasty green bile. (Told you not to read, these are my memories:P) He is moving around a lot better today. I think he needs to move more to keep everything going.

::BeanDip is churnin in my belly, but I'm still typing::

::Sigh::

Had to ground Alec... I'm not happy about that as he's barely been here a month. But he did somthing that really needed some sort of discipline. He wanted to spend the night at my grandmother's house which I thought was a good idea because he and the girls drive each other crazy and pick at each other all the time, so I figured it would be a nice break for them all. Let me tell you, he.is.lucky.he.was.not.there! Truly, I don't know what I would have done, and John was still in the hospital... In his room on the floor at the foot of his bed was bunch of cigarette butts, a pocket-knife, matches, and a double butane lighter. I was floored, and then I was Livid! I called John and we both decided to not say anything until Alec came home and John was home. So I cleaned the rest of his room, refolded his clothes and made his bed. Then put everything I found on the stove. John was able to come home the very next day when I picked Alec up. He walked in and didnt think anything was amiss, then he saw the stove and quietly walked out of the room like he didnt see it. By then I was calm, I had the night to chew it all up and digest it in my brain.. The reasons I was most upset, (a)-He is 11 years old, wtf¿ (b)-He burned the floor right next the the wall where the girls are sleeping in their room. (c)-He has no friends here yet, so there was no influence, this was him alone. (d)-He burnt holes in the sheet, his blanket, a pillow, and I found cigarette cherries in the closet amongst John's collecters Kiss stuff. John yelled at him told him he was grounded, sent him to his room and I came in and calmy talked to him about the consequences that Could.Have happened. He cried all night and I came in and talked to him, I know he was thinking about what he did as he would ask questions whenever I came in. He knows it is wrong, he knew it was wrong when he did it (fuck that sounds like me when I was a teenager) But I am glad that we had something like this early, we got over a big hump that I think he will learn from. I hope... He is me at that age all over again only male, I am in so much trouble in the next 7 years.

::Scratches head:: I think the cable is back up now. w000t!

Back to IRL life :D... I've went through a lot of books and computer games in the last week or so.


HAAAAAAAACCCCCYYEEEEWWW! Love ya baby! Thanks for the call, I got you on yim now, so we'll keep in touch. Stay healthy dooode!

Well, I think I will leave with a few words... haha

1. Don't give someone a laptop when you havent formatted it.. as some emails can be very interesting reading to someone else...

2. Don't drive a car blind or you might get a booboo on your head...

'Nuff said
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July 7th, 2005


11:40 am - John Back in Surgery *Updated*
Took John into surgery this at 9am to get him all fixed back together. He is happy, but scared he will still come out wearing a bag. I just called the hospital and the surgine is late, but he is there and ready to go. Has all the ivs and everything going.

Trying to keep the 3 kids entertained. We played monopoly, Raven won (my little Trump).. altho we had to cut the game short because Alec took a box away from Morghan, so she halled off and kicked the box while he was looking at it and just about gave him a black eye. lol Gotta love kids!

All I can think about it John, but I wanted to write something about it, mabe it will ease my mind a little.

The radio is doing Excellent! I got a lot of modifications done to the chatroom (ALL BY MYSELF!) that I've been working on for months. I'm proud, it looks great. And with Crshie's great buttons it loooks all new and definantly improved from the f'ed up hack job that the old admin did. Have a lot more in the works. Still working on the galleries. It will be something very special when it is done.

Other than that... Waiting, waiting...

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Update:: Finally got to John at 7pm. he was still pretty much out of it. The kids and i didnt stay too long because when he woke up he was in pain. It's just better for him to stay in LaLa land. But everything is ok, i checked for him and the bag was gone (hehe he kept having dreams that something happened and the bag would still be there) but, its outa there. Everything seems to be ok so my nerves are less frayed than before. :)
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June 20th, 2005


05:57 pm - It's Monday
The last time I went to the library I picked up 2 books for myself and ran across a vampire book for John. I got done with both of mine before he finished the first chaper of his. ::Grin:: So I read his too lol. All three were really great books. Especially his vampire book. I think I found a new author I like. So here's the run down of those:

Lord of the dead : the secret history of Byron by Tom Holland
Lord Byron as a vampire? That notion may not explain the aberrant behavior of the much-revered Romantic poet, but it definitely provides a racy foundation for Holland's engaging and sophisticated debut novel. The story begins in London in the present, as lovely young Rebecca Carville petitions her lawyer for the keys to the family crypt, where she hopes to find the sole existing copy of Byron's memoirs. Instead, she finds Byron himself, who proceeds to tell her the story of how he became a vampire during his journey to Greece. The first half of Byron's account remains within the conventions of the horror genre, as the great poet desperately fights the efforts of the powerful Greek vardoulacha, who eventually drains his blood. Once Byron begins to explore his new nature, however, Holland embarks on a remarkable literary journey, touching on how the poet's burden might have affected his relationships with the women in his life as well as his problematic dealings with Shelley. Other subplots recall the early Anne Rice novels, particularly the sections in which Byron tries to unite the vampires and help the Greeks in their revolt against the Turks. But the most compelling portions of the book probe the links between blood and family that surface when Byron discovers that he must take the life of a relative in order to maintain his youthful beauty. Both the period detail and the biographical material are exquisitely rendered, and the shocking revelation that brings the story full circle and places Rebecca Carville in extreme peril makes for a nice surprise ending. With this striking, highly original debut, Holland offers a valuable addition to the vampire legend.

Circle of stones by Waldo, Anna Lee
Summary
From the author of the 1.5 million-copy bestseller "Sacajawea" comes the mesmerizing first volume of "The Druid Circle", about the legendary Welsh discovery of America.
Review
Researching Sacajawea, her first historical novel, Waldo encountered the legend of the blond Welshman, Madoc, who sailed to the Americas three centuries before Columbus. That tale inspired this well-researched but sometimes stolidly paced novel whose Irish heroine, Brenda, is the favored mistress of Owain, Prince of Gwynedd in North Wales, and mother of Madoc. When Owain falls prey to a superstitious prophecy and demands the newborn boy be put to death, Brenda flees with the help of Druids. On her forced return to Owain, she pretends Madoc has been killed. Brenda finds she cannot love Owain, but she does become his trusted adviser and a talented healer. The narrative is anecdotal and episodic, offering a variety of historical characters in the years 1151-1170 A.D, and employing archaic language and spelling. Waldo takes some unconventional risks: Owain's two wives, Gladys and Christiannt, both New Religionists (Christians), are presented as foolish, selfish women, in marked contrast to wise, courageous Brenda, who favors the Old Religionists (the Druids). Madoc, predestined at birth to be a leader and man of peace, later comes to seek out his mother and serve his father. Brenda is only one of several fully realized characters, a woman who struggles with the male-dominated 12th-century social code but still orchestrates a fulfilling life for herself. At times Waldo's determination to represent the religious and political history of the epoch retards the thrust of her narrative, but readers will appreciate the complex dynamics she portrays within her fact-filled epic.


The Heir by Catherine Coulter
Summary
Catherine Coulter's reputation as a premier writer of flawless characterization and breathtaking passion is again proven in this provocative story of a young woman forced to marry a stranger to retain her family estate. From the New York Times bestselling author of The Rebel Bride.



I have my machine ready to be formatted.. actually I can't wait to have the trash off of it. A cleansing is always a good thing.
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